Trying My Patience

Q: Why does our lives seem to just hold in limbo? I want so much more out of my existence here, yet, I seem to just be existing - not living. Is it my fault? The Universes? Source's? What is going on?

A: Every soul's life hangs in the balance at this time. Each soul is deciding whether to stay in their current energy pattern or to move forward into the coming new energy. You are undecided at this moment, Luv. A part of you is angry at everything and everyone for the place you find yourself dwelling in. The other part wishes to move forward into the new energy. You will have to decide what it is you truly desire.

Q: What I want seems to evade me.  So - George - you got any suggestions?

A:  Luv, temporal things will soon pass. Spirit lives on.  But - you have to decide that for yourself.

Q: George, do we have to always live through hell to learn a lesson?  Can't we sometimes learn an easier way?

A:  How would one truly learn if the emotions weren't tasked?  That is how the Ego learns. You want things to be easy and rosy. Sometimes they are. Sometimes they are not. The things you have gone through and felt deeply within your emotions will pass and the things you desire to be will come in their time. You need to be patient.

A: Child, have you not seen the true nature of love? Have you not felt my love before? Why do you doubt it?  This all will pass and you will have your desires. Do not doubt my words.

Q:  I am so tired I find it hard to believe in anything anymore. I hate the path I am on and I hate seeing my children suffering. Why can't I have what I ask? Is it so wrong to long for some peace in our lives?  Do we have to keep living in all this sadness? Can you not care a little more?

A: I do care. You must be patient. All will come at the appointed time for you and your children. But you must allow - doubt in me -  to leave.

Q:  All I want is to have my own home, quit my job and work on my books and my quilts. I want to see some good things come to my children and my friends. Is that so wrong?  Is wanting my own home wrong?

A: That too shall come in its appointed time child. Rest in my promise.

Q: I would love too but I am so tired emotionally I find it hard to believe in anything anymore. Eleven hour days are wearing my body down. The unrest in my existence is wearing me down and the fact nothing is coming of my books is frustrating. I feel like I am writing for not.  What's going on?  I can't seem to write anything good any more and I don't feel the power I once did, not since leaving Dripping Springs. So what in the hell am I suppose to be doing - working in a job I hate till I drop dead. What's up anymore?

A:  Child, you must believe in my love for you. Why must you always doubt it.

Q:  Every time I receive a little happiness in my life - I loose it. Its like I'm not suppose to have any. Tell me why is it so wrong to want to enjoy one's life here? Or is it just that I am not suppose too?

A:  You enjoy what you choose to enjoy child. One does not have to suffer emotionally unless that is the path they choose.

Q: Okay - so now it is my fault I live in this hell. I don't think so. All I want is to be able to once in a while have some fun, not have to constantly try to figure out how in the hell I am going to be able to pay my bills, or fix my teeth or see my children smiling.  Life sucks right now and I am tired. Can you not at least ask the Universe to bless my children, give them peace and some success and fun in their lives?

A:  That is all coming in its time.

Q:  They need work. They need to be able to pay their bills and buy food.  That doesn't even count the fact - they long to be able to work at the things they love - not what they have too. There are so many souls here able to have that. Why not my family?  Is it if one follows spirit - one has to remain poor and sad all of the time. I guess you  can tell I am very angry at this moment. I don't think I should have to suffer this way. I think it is wrong for so many to be suffering. Is that all there is here - suffering?  Why can't there be blessings and plenty for all?  I am beginning to hate this world.  So is this how I am to write the books I was told I was to write. I am beginning to think I am crazy and that I am just writing down what my mind thinks only.  You say - trust. Man - I don't even know what that means any more. All I am inside is bitter and angry.  I have no right to say or write anything anymore. Maybe it is time my path was ended and someone else carries the torch for the books.  I am no longer fit to write anything. I am exhausted physically, mentally and emotionally and I have not in me to believe in love.

A:  Child, I see your feelings and understand, but you must continue your path. No one is pure of heart. No one is spiritually superior. All falter and waver at times. This is one of your times. It too shall pass. The things you desire will come.

Q: Not before I loose what I want.

A:  Is this because of that home you desire?

Q: That and the suffering of my family.  I saw the sadness in my brothers face.  If we had still had our business I could have helped him, but we lost that too.  It was suppose to bless everyone - instead it left us in hell. Why?  Was it so wrong to want it to bless our family and our friends?  What in the hell is going on. I am so sad of heart, frustrated and now more than ever - angry. Maybe I should just leave this place.  I am so tired of all this sadness.  I can't bear anymore. I am too tired. I am too angry. And I don't even believe I am truly loved anymore.  It all sucks to me.

A: I see you are very tired and I see the anger starting in you. I understand all of this but if you still had your past life - you would not have continued the books or seeking me.

Q: Yeah - that's not true. When things were easier on us and our family - I wrote much more deeper things of spirit. I found more power in me to see things of spirit. Now, I just feel sadness and anger. So how in the hell is this suppose to teach me more of spirit.  Yes, I am so angry I could sit down and scream but then they would probably take me away and lock me up. 

A: Patience is the key child. There is a reason for all of these things happening. For one thing if your business would have continued your husband would not be where he is spiritually and your marriage would have dissolved. Both of you were not seeking the right path.  So remember all things happen for a reason. The path you are both on will bring happiness in time. You will see you were meant to write the books and your husband will see his path clearly too.  It will surprise you both at the joy you will feel.  I can assure you your dreams will all come to pass.

Q:  Everyone is talking about everyone suffering, going hungry and having nothing.  It scares the hell out of me for my family.  I can't help them - we are barely making it.  How I long to just get a haircut once in a while or have my nails done again. These are things I enjoyed for me. They made me feel pretty.  Something I no longer feel.  I just feel frustrated, angry, old and useless. So how am I to ever feel and understand love again?

A:  When you choose to accept things as they are and choose to feel joyous. It is all up to you child.

Feeling Confused

Q;  At this present time I am feeling very confused about the subject of changing one's self.  I know we create our path but how we can change it at will is confusing me.

A:  Each soul comes here to experience certain lessons.   How they learn them is up to each person.  To change one's path is simply making the choice.

Q:  Funny George, its not that easy.  You don't just say I'm going to change my path and bam - it changes.  I've tried that so many times only to be disappointed time and time again.  So - how does one change their path?

A:  When a prayer is uttered from one's heart - it is created. The prayer must be believe and accepted in one's heart. It has to be one with you.  Many souls just utter a prayer for change but do not accept it or believe it will be.

Q:  Are we talking about faith here?

A;  Faith is simply believing it will be.  It is such an easy thing to say but unfortunately on this dimension it is more often impossible for the ego to believe. The Ego is handicapped when it comes to faith. Again faith is a knowing it will be. The ego suffers from doubt and confusion. The soul on the other hand just knows it will be. One must merge the soul and ego to produce the change. It isn't easy. It must become a true belief that what you want will come.  There have been times in your past when you ask for a change and it happened. There are other times when it did not.  The different is belief.  You may call it faith but is is simply accepting the fact the reality will take place in your life.

Q:  So - does meditation help?

A:   Meditation helps anything in your walk but it does not create the change.  It is the acceptance within you that produces the change.

Q:  So - how do I do it?

A: Simply believe it will be and accept it in your heart.

Thoughts

Q;  Just a few posts back we were talking about thought as the creation of all things.  Please explain.

A:  Child, this is Shambia. Thought is you and is also all things.  When the creation of all things began - it was born from thought.  Thought creates life. It creates movement. It creates knowledge. It is the jest of all there is.  Without it - nothing would exist in this world or in any other Universe. You say - are there other worlds. There are millions of other worlds - each existing the same way - through thought creation.  Thoughts are energy in action. 

Q:  How?

A:  Energy created all things.  Creation is a binding together of all thoughts into a centered oneness.  It will never be separate - energy is from one source - love.  Love is the life of all things. That one energy is simply - the creation of thought.  Thought produces what one desires. If one desires something with all their might - it happens.  There have been things in your path in which your whole being longed for. Did it not happen?  Your thoughts - your desire - are what created that.

Q:  Why doesn't it still happen in my path?

A: A true thought is from the center of your being.  It comes without doubt. 

Q:  Well, I have thoughts but they do not materialize. Why?

A:  A true thought is one in which there is a knowing within that it will be. If one doubts - it will not be.

Q:  Okay - how do I produce a true thought?

A:  One does not produce it - it comes from within. It is a desire to have or be. It is as you love.  If you ask for something that is not a true thought - it will not happen. A true thought is a knowing within it will be as you have created within.

Q: How do I do that?

A:  Be the thought.

Q: You wanta explain that a little more?

A:  A true thought is simply - you - within - desiring it to be. It is not produced - it lives within.

Q: Okay - I'm simply not getting what you are saying.  How can I simply have a thought coming from within that I have not produced? Isn't my mind creating it?

A: A true thought is a desire - to have or be. It is not doubted or produce. It is and lives and becomes real.

Q: I guess this is too deep for my brain to understand.  If I think any thought isn't that true?

A:  A true thought is created by your love within,  child.  A true thought is what your heart truly desires. It comes and is created from love.

Q: Okay - then how do I find that place within me to produce my desires?

A:  You don't find it. It finds you child when the time for it to be comes.

War

Q:  George, why is their war?  We war in society, we war in our spirit, we war in our ego.  Seems to me all we do is war. Why?

A: The human spirit or ego - if you wish it that way -  is always wanting to obtain what it desires whether it is in society, our spirit or our ego.  It is always due to some form of desire.  War happens to obtain things, land, rule, or dominion. It isn't a pleasant thing for either side. It causes much grief to all those involved. Often it produces just the opposite of what the whole war started out for.  It is sad. We guides hate to see war happen in any given situation but it often is the best teacher - especially when it is a war within one.  Often a war in our spirit or ego will bring the soul into a new discovery of spirit and of themselves.  So sometimes war can be good.  If one wars, (lets say for example,) in their ego over the desire to gamble or not gamble.  The soul is in agony within fighting the desire to do it and suffering the guilt of what it will bring to them and those they love.  The war will eventually end when the ego chooses which direction it will go, but the natural consequences of their choice will start.  For the soul addicted to gambling it is often the one that will bring the most sorrow.  Often they will loose a great deal if not all they have. Those around them will suffer too, eventually that soul will finally come to the end of their struggle and choose to change. It is a hard and lonely road they will travel to get out of the addiction. Its the same with any addiction - no matter the love. Addiction is strictly a love.  The love is very strong and the desire to maintain that love even stronger. A soul can be addicted to any love.  Often we think of - a love - as a person, house, or car - as the real love. 
Loves can be anything.  Loves can be a desire to rule - to dominate, food, clothes, anger, jealousy, knowledge, sex, hatred, well you get my drift. It is anything we desire more than anything else.  It controls our thinking, our path's direction. It is what we become - as we seek after our love. If our love is to follow within the oneness of love then we find our path riddled with havoc.  For we can only truly learn to love as we suffer within the dying of our duality.  Duality produces separation. Love produces oneness.  So love can only be when we learn there is no such thing as separation. The only way to learn that  - is to allow the soul and ego to merge.  Believe me when I say - that will produce a war within you! The ego is not one to want the soul to have any say in our path.  It will fight to the end to maintain its dominance.  The soul on the other hand will simply love the ego as it is and allow it to have its way.  It wants peace - not war.  The ego desires the war.  It relishes the power and command.  Now you are thinking why have an ego.  It is bad. 
No, it is not.  The ego produces the journey for each soul to obtain knowledge of enlightenment. Without it we would not learn. It is a very necessary thing.  For only in the war can one learn what love is.

Q:  Why can't we just be born with the knowledge?  Why do we have to fight for it?

A:  If one is given everything does that one truly appreciate it?  No - one will simply take it for granted.  To realize what love is - one must take the path of true learning.  They must allow each experience to come forth in order for the lesson to be learned. Each experience walked - teaches that soul who and what they are. One can not change until one truly learns that.  If I state - all souls are one - with your mind dwelling in duality - would you grasp the true meaning of the word - oneness?  No - you simply would not.  For one will only learn it as the ego allows its counterpart the soul to merge with it and open up the truth that dwells within.  The light within  - given at that moment  - will begin the path to the knowledge of what it means when I speak of - oneness.  This is a journey all souls must take and continue to take. Even we guides continue to grow in enlightenment.  The only difference is we see the - why.

Unconditional Love

Q: Today I was writing on Facebook about unconditional love.  I made the comment to obtain it we had to let all boxes go.  You stopped me and said,"You are unconditional love. You don't obtain it." That was an eye opener for me.  I have always thought I had to work towards it.

A:  No soul has to work for it.  It is already what they are.  One can't get something if they already have it.   For all souls were born of it.  It is something you can never change - no matter how hard you try by seeking to get it through your works.  It never comes by trying to get it.  It simply is.  It is you.  Rest in that child.

Q: Okay - where is George and who is this speaking?

A:  George is right here.  We have been in a deep discussion.  It has been good.  I am Shambia.  Your peace is on a low level child.  You have to quit fighting yourself.  Rest in who and what you are.

Q: I am so confused as to why things have been so hard for us and why it is so hard for me to let go of all the old thoughts on Spirit.  I think I have - then something pops up I had no idea I felt that way.  Why?  Why doesn't it just all go?

A"  It goes as you allow it too.  Remember child - free will is paramount in this universe of enlightenment. It will never be overridden. It is pure love and that can not ever be forsaken or changed or given up.  You can not give up what you are or who you are. It is simply the fact of life for all.  For all are one.

Q:  Do you still suffer with these kind of things?

A: Once a soul crosses over and rejoins their ego and soul - that sort of thing lessens within you.  Its not to say you don't still have to lay down thoughts.  For one never gets over thoughts. Thoughts make everything exist.  It creates us and is us.  Thoughts are pure love energy coming from within each soul to establish within them a monarchy of love. It grounds us.  It builds us and it can even destroy one.  It is a deeping existence of enlightenment within each soul.  One can not hide or forsake thought.  It is forever one with all things.  That is how this whole universe is born - through thought.  Thought creates life.

Q: Whoa - it is all thought reaction?

A: Yes, child. Everything is born of thought.  It is good - no matter which way one's thought goes. For one simply learns either way.

Love....Why Is It So Hard?

Q:  George, why is love so hard to accomplish in us?  We talk about it, think we know what it is - then something takes place and wham - love is no where to be found.  Why is that so?

A:  To truly love is hard because to truly love is to lay down your Ego and your Ego will never go quietly.  Here with the Ego in the ruling position - it will not allow love to become the center of each soul.  If it did it would no longer be in the driver's seat.  But, remember all came here to experience all emotions.  This is only accomplished through the Ego - who is your emotional side.  It isn't bad - its just how it was meant to be here.  As you become more aware of your soul's ability to truly love - you become more loving. But love must start at the act of loving one's self.  That is hard to do as society, parents, churches and people who influence us - teach us guilt.  Guilt takes away love.  It teaches one to judge. The judging starts within one's self first then radiates out to others.  This is how each soul's journey begins here. One simply has to reach out to their soul and grasp love.  It is so good to feel that pure love radiate within one.  You have experienced it many times.

Q: Yes, but I get discouraged because it doesn't seem to stay long.  I find my faith in love falters and then I feel bad.

A: Does not every one's love falter, child?  Can one truly understand love if one is divided within one's self?  No. For love is only learned as your soul and ego merge - reminding them both what they are and where they came from.

Q:  Who answered me this time?

A: It is I Shambia, child.  Do you not feel the love I am merging you in at this time?

Q: Yes.

A: Then accept my love and let it heal you.  For there is much division within you.  You fight your work.  you doubt it.  Yet, it is as breathing within you. You try to lay it down - but you can't. It is merging with you and you feel it, despite the fact you want to deny it at times.  That is okay child. It is slowly taking you over and you will see just why and how you are truly loved.  Can you not feel it?

Q: Yes. But I feel so unworthy of it.

A:  All are worthy of love - for that is where you were created. As you progress in your path (as all others also progress) you will see what love is and also what you are - love within love.  It is so marvelous to feel. Is it not?

Q: Yes, I feel it now, but why can't I keep it?

A: If you kept the true feeling of love 100% of the time - why would you continue to journey and learn and grow?

Q: I guess I see your point but I just wish I could grasp what love really is and hold onto it forever.

A: That is to come child for every being of light. For all will return to what they are.

When Will The Sadness End?

Q:  When does our break come?  Dewain states I am the one controlling my destiny. I make the rules and choose it all.  Yet, I find that too difficult to understand.  Please explain.

A; This path is one of your choosing, Luv.  You came to do a job and that job has required a great deal from you.  The trials you have experienced have transformed you into this being of light.  This is all appointed within you.  Sometimes circumstance arise in one's path to slightly alter one's path.  This is good but can often bring about much travail within one.  Do not fear this path, embrace it and choose to follow the mark for which you came.

Q: I am tired and I feel forsaken in so many ways.

A: Luv, no soul is ever forsaken.  The reason you feel that way is due to your Ego making you feel it.  Do not heed what it says to your mind.  Go within to your inner light and seek the peace there. It will aid you greatly.