Wondering

Q: Why is it easy to forgive others but it seems so hard to forgive our self? I find it very hard to comprehend why I struggle to get all you teach me. Some I grasp - some just goes over my head. It frustrates me. A: You have always been hardest on yourself. You are so willing to forgive others, but you never think to lend the same to yourself. You have the preconceived image of what spiritual means. It is not completely true, Luv. Being spiritual is resting in Love's peace. It is not allowing your pathway to rule you, but to rest in it. It really is very simple. One simply needs to see themselves as whole now. Not in pieces as society and religion teaches. Love is whole - love is living in unity with all things. If you lay down all you think in your mind to be spiritual - you will discover what real spirituality is. It is resting. It is not trying to be this or that - but accepting what you truly are - love.'' Q: This all sounds so easy - but here on the dimension it is very hard to accept rest. Our Ego mind is racing like mad to tell us what truth is. A: Yes, it is indeed, but when does one listen to self's mind? The truth is - love exists in all. It is all. There is no other truth. Recognize this and you will allow these ideas you have created in your Ego mind to fall away and rest will come. Q: If only I could accomplish that, George. It sounds so easy - but it isn't. A: Love is the most simple thing there is , but the hardest to obtain here. For everything love is - the Ego mind fights against. Q: Why? Aren't the Soul and the Ego one? A: Yes, but remember here they are separated by a veil. Q: Well - take my veil away so they can see each other. A: Only at death will that be. For if your Soul and Ego merged permanently you would see no reason to stay here and finish your path. The Ego is self centered and thinks it knows what truly is. It has built its path and will not divert from it. The Soul on the other hand is willing to rest in love and allow love to guide it. This to the Ego is a sign it would loose its control - which isn't something the Ego desires. So it fights against such notions and goes on its merry way. Q: Wish mine would listen at least occasionally to its Soul. Sure would be easier. A: Yes, it would be - but then you would not learn all of the lessons you chose to learn here for free will must be at all times the true controller.

What's Going On

Q; What is going on, George? People are angry, more greedy, more impatient, suspicious, non-responsive, and becoming separated. Its like the whole darn world has gone to war with itself. Is the energy changing - causing this? A: As the energy is expanding and speeding up the emotions of all living things will be affected. The emotions will intensify and their reactions will intensify. Souls strengths and weaknesses will become more prominent. Things that hardly affected one will now cause a reaction. Things will become more negative or more positive depending on the energy one dwells in. That is why meditation will be so important for one - as this time of mind rest will allow one's own energy to expand and speed up to be able to stabilize one's emotions. Q: What if I don't meditate? A: Then you will find yourself struggling with the energy surrounding you. Your emotions may or may not control you. It will be up to you. Q: This whole shift thing is so unnerving to me. What will happen to the Soul unaware of the increase of the energy speed? A: They will be reacting as all others unable to find the center of their peace. Q: What can I do to help myself? A: Go within - center yourself in the core of your peace center. Q: What is my peace center? A: The core of each Soul's energy in the human body is their heart. The heart is where all concepts of love exist in this earthly form for the heart beats from love. Q: Love creates life here? A: The center core of all that love is creates life everywhere. Without it - not would be. Q: I guess the core you are speaking of is Source? A: Source is love. Love creates all life. Q: How can love be the creator of all life? A: Source is the creator. Source is love. Source gives life. Without this energy of love none would exist anywhere. Q: What is love? A: Love is thought - thought produced by electrical impulses from within Source. Q: So without thought - nothing exists? A: Yes - thought must exist for all life to be. Thought was created by LOVE. Love produced these thoughts and the thought creates the action. It produces all things into realization of sight. It makes it real to us. For all things can only have life through thought and love.

What's Going On

How Does One Find Happiness

Q; I was listening to a radio talk show. A lady asked the guest speaker how to find happiness. She said for her to just choose to be happy wasn't working. So, George, how does one find happiness? A: Happiness is in the acceptance of things as they are. Q: Are you going back in reference to the Biblical scripture, "In whatsoever state ye find your self therewith be content?" A: In a way yes. If one chooses to accept their life path as it is - one can learn the lesson quickly and the circumstance can then change. Q; I know resenting one's path doesn't make it go easier or faster - that's for sure. It just makes one reek in negative vibes and makes it more difficult to stay in a positive mode. A: Yes, that is true. When one stops fighting against the energy flow they are in - the energy will be able to move forward. If one holds onto their energy it can't move forward - it becomes stalemated. One gets stuck in a rut and learning is halted within one. I am not saying one is less spiritual when they stop their energy flow - but it does halt ones' ability to move upward in love. It unfortunately just prolongs the lesson. Q: So if I am stuck in this area that is more negative than positive will that change my pathway? A: All movement affects one's life path. When one ceases the flow of energy it can't continue in a steady even knowing. It becomes aware of the time frames of its path. When energy is flowing - time frames do not exist. When the Soul sees this internally - and allows energy to start to flow again - the journey will progress forward. Q: But, will I have missed some of the lessons I was to experience? A: For the moment but the lessons will reappear at a later time and may come in a different manner. All lessons we come here to learn will be learned. All experience their chosen pathway one way or the other. Q: What is that suppose to mean - one way or the other? That doesn't sound very loving. A: Just if you miss an opportunity to move forward another opportunity will appear. Love will never over ride one's free will, but what one agreed to learn will be - unless the Soul and Ego merge and agree together - to cancel out the lesson. Then it will be erased from the Soul's pathway. Q: Can we really do that? A: Yes, one can. You are the creator of your path. You alone hold the key to what you want to learn or what you don't want to learn. Freedom to be who and what you desire to be. It is good.

Talking From Our Ego Mind

Q: George, people are always talking about how we all react and speak from our Ego mind. Okay-how do we do different? A: Luv, here on this dimension all talk, react and think from their Ego. That is the whole purpose of this walk - to learn emotions. Q: How does reacting or talking from one's Ego mind ever teach us? Seems like all it does is keep us from the knowing. A: Here the Ego is loud and clear. It directs each life drama from its own attitude. Each time one reacts with their EGO - the Ego is separated - this causes pain within the soul. One can not live without unity. When each Soul desired to come and walk a certain path - that path included all the lessons one needed to learn the emotion in a very realistic manner. Each Soul reacting with the Ego will see their path from only that angle. That is the purpose of this walk - to learn from the lessons we cause and experience. Q: Okay - so we react from our Ego every time? How do we learn not too? A: Luv, while here all react from the Ego's full consciousness. That is the whole purpose of this walk. One can not learn if one does not face the lesson in full emotion. Q: Well, I for one want to learn not too. I am tired of learning from only my Ego's selfish nature. It makes me screw up too much. I want perfection....Lol A: Not one Soul was, is or ever will be perfect in this earthly flesh. How can one learn if they do not step on stickers once in a while? One simply must go through each lesson to cut out a little more of themself from their Ego's control. Q: Why does it have to be so hard to learn life's emotions? To find love and peace? Why can't our walk here have some TLC in it? Does our Ego have to always be so bad? So selfish? A: Luv, the Ego isn't bad at all. It is learning how to love - truly love. The lessons are needed for the Soul and the Ego to become one - to unify. Each time the Ego learns a lesson it draw closer to it's counter part the Soul. They merge and true love is experienced in them as one. Q: Okay - we learn - but why come here just to learn? Man - the life lessons here can become very tough on one. A: That is good - in pain one truly learns. Q: That is easy for you to say, George, you aren't the one here - learning these lessons. A: I was at many times. Some of the paths I walked were extremely hard on me - but I survived as all will in time. I grew in my knowing of what love means. That is the wonderful part. Each lesson brings one closer to discovering who and what they are. It brings the Soul and Ego into balance and love becomes more prominent within and without them- but not as two but as a whole - balanced. Q: Okay to learn when they merge gets us a deeper view of what is? A: More than just a view - an enriched experience of what love within you is. Love is Source. When you experience an epiphany you see into the Soul of who you are. You experience for a moment the endless knowing of love - the love that purifies each cell within you. You become at that moment aware of the oneness of you and Source and all that is. Q: Are you stating we merge with Source within us? A: Yes - totally and freely. The Ego and Soul of you merges with the pure love (Source) within you. That is why each Soul comes here to learn. As each time we learn our lesson here we merge with the very core of the love that created us. We become one with all things - within us and without us. Only in pure love can one experience what it means to love freely. Q: So, here I will always react from my Ego - is that what you are saying to me? If so, I am doomed to be separated from all. I seem to react badly a lot - from my Ego. Why don't I ever learn? A: Luv, all learn and learn the easy way or the hard way - but learn they shall. That is the whole purpose of this path. Why else would you come but to learn. Q: I don't seem to be learning very well lately. A: Oh but you are, Luv. Each time your Ego goes into its defense mode or into high gear - you are learning. for it will always cause one pain. Q: I'm tired of pain. That's all I seem to experience lately. A: That is how you learn, Luv. It is good.

The Shift

Q: When we first talked about the coming shift it was as if it were a physical happening. The other day you talked as if it were a spiritual consciousness awakening. Which is it? A: First - the energy of this dimension will change. It is speeding up to make way for a new spiritual awakening in all Souls. The energy of this planet runs about 15 GRP's slower than needed. Q: What pray tell is GRP's? A: Gravity rate percentage. Q: What is that? A: This dimension runs on a gravity rate percentage. Without going into a scientific explanation lets just say this: the gravity that holds everything down is controlled by a percentage rate - such as 12%, 30% or 100%. It has to lessen to allow the energy to speed up which is very difficult to accomplish with people here. Usually when this world changes people are not on it. So in order to do this without harming the living things it has to be done in increments. This is being done daily now at about .001 % per every 6 hours. This causes the least amount to damage. Q: If it were faster what would happen? A: The atoms would heat too fast and reek havoc on this planet. Just think of billions and billions of atoms overheating this planet. It would cause many deaths almost by the minute. Q: So, this is being done at a slower pace to prevent that? A: Yes, but even at this slow pace repercussions are happening to this world. Q: Are you speaking of the earthquakes, floods, changes in the earth's surface and the sea? A: Yes, the ocean's three areas are beginning to churn at a higher rate. This is causing many severe changes in its normal way of being. The fish are responding differently. Some are dying faster - some are becoming more aggressive than normal - some are beaching. Q: Since you have often stated that the animals and such all come from very old Souls - did they agree to this pathway? A: Yes, before they came to walk their path. Q: The very few times I have said to someone what you told me about all animals, trees, plant life, rocks and all things come from the very oldest of souls - people looked at me like I was crazy. They simply did not agree. A: It is not necessary for anyone to agree. These books you are to write are for knowledge of Source and his power. They are not being written to gain a following. Q: No chance of that George - people just think I am either crazy or a kook. haha..... Besides I do not want to be a person someone would think of as a guru or on a pedestal. I am simply writing these books because I was ask too. A: Don't leave out you choose this path, Luv. It is a honored path. But all are aware of your feelings of being sought out as someone on what you call a pedestal. Stay that way - it will keep you humble. Q: First of all George - I have never felt worthy of such a task. Nor do I even want it. But an agreement has been accepted and I will continue to try and do my best. A: Your best is only as best as you are willing for it to be, Luv. You are the creator of this journey. You alone decide how it will be. Q; Then I will try to do my best for Source. I sure wouldn't mind some easement in my private life thought.

In The TIme Of Rest

Q: When is the , "Time of Rest?" A: When one chooses to accept what is and simply allows peace to rule in them. Q: Very funny George.....Some time we can - other times Hell would freeze over before we obtain that place of rest. This journey here is certainly not for the weak. A: None are weak - no one is walking their path wrong. All progress as they should - even you Luv, although you don't think so. You struggle with your walk because you doubt your ability to love or accept love. Q: Not always - but you have to admit I've been burned a lot. So I am skittish. A: Yes you are and having been human before it is understandable, but you must get passed all that to obtain the true light your heart seeks. Q: And just how do I do that? A: By thinking in oneness not duality. You waver in and out on that one. Q: Yeah - I know, but not sure how to change it within me. I try but I end up screwing up again - getting my head back into duality - thinking we are all separate. A: Not all, Luv - you and Source. You must realize there is no separation between you and Source. There never was - nor will there ever be. You are welded together in love and in energy. His energy is yours. yours is Source's. Q: Don't know if Source would want to be one with me at this present time. I seem to just waver in and out until I become so frustrated within me. A: If you are struggling - Source is. If you are at rest - Source is. You need to love who and what you are - without adding what you feel to be failures within you. Q: Thanks for that George - but that is often hard to do - when you can't find yourself. A: You have always been within you and within Source. You are never separated - no matter what. Even the ones this dimension states are the lowest of low individuals are mighty kings with Source. They are the beloved and Source is theirs. There is no bad or good only LOVE. Love is all encompassing and can not be pulled a part or separated. It is impossible. For love is what makes all exist. Without love - none - are. You see - you are that love. You are that peace and all that exists within Source is you and for you. You can never change than. None can. For that is what love is - ACCEPTANCE - totally without any strings. One of these days you will surprise yourself and get it within and all energy will rejoice with you. For it is yours to have. Believe it. Q: You'd think writing all the stuff would make me understand it, but Some of it germinates within me and some doesn't. Why? A: Because you struggle with the knowing of love.

Okay Let's Dig Deeper

Q: Today you and I were in a conversation about our journey here. You stated that happiness could only be when each soul accepts their walk as it is, learns the lesson and moves on. I said what if we chose not too. What then? A: As we were discussing this matter you asked how to find happiness, that just saying we choose to be happy didn't always work for souls. That is true if one is in a particular circumstance, refuses to accept the lesson and becomes rooted in their negative energy. I stated that love could not expand in that situation. We also discussed how each soul chooses its pathway here and the lessons it chooses to learn. Each lesson by the way produces more knowing of love in each soul. You said how could one choose to accept a situation if it was difficult emotionally for the Ego. I said one must decide to move onward despite the pain to the Ego. Q: George, we are in human form here - ruled by an Ego that is determined to be the king. It refuses to balance with its counterpart the soul. So they war. What does one do with that? A: First of all the Soul never wars with anything. It is pure love and can not. It is a mediator and only desires to help its other half. The Ego on the other hand is quite bossy and wants to control its walk here. So the only thing warring is the Ego with itself - its own mind. The Soul longs to prevent a lot of the pain the Ego goes through here. When they do balance for a moment the Ego sees the difference in the energy and emotions. For a moment in time it agrees - then its mind runs away with it and off the Ego goes to retain its throne of power. It is a continual process of on again and off again journey. As the Soul begins to meditate on love and gives over to it - the times of warring taper off. It is a glorious thing for the Ego to open its eyes to who and what it is. When energy is stalemated, held down - the Ego refuses to budge from its pain much less accepts the walk as it is - love is stifled. It is held in a limbo and can not expand within the Soul. The Soul cries out in agony with its pain but the Ego holds on for dear life to the situation - not letting it go - so it can rumble in its pain and anger - feeling a great deal of self-pity. It doesn't mean that soul is not spiritual when this takes place - it only means the Ego won against the Soul's urgings. It may take a little longer for that soul to get to where it can let go and move forward on its path. Q: Well, if one is halted - in its self-pity - and doesn't move does that change their pathway? Will they miss some lessons? A: No, the pathway of lessons chosen will take place - maybe at another time and place and in a different way - but they will learn them. There is no right way or a wrong way to trod. There is only a path of learning who and what you are. It is a path of great discovery of one's Soul within. Love will move forward and expand and all will right itself once again despite the Ego's emotional pull. For love will always win. It is the strongest thing that exists. It is all incompassing.

Why?

Q: Why am I given this task? A: You chose it before the beginning of your journey here. Q: Why? A: So the realization of who and what each Soul is would be brought to life. The knowing of who Source is would become one with all souls. Q: And how do you think that is going to be when I am the only one reading this blog? A: In its time all will be revealed. Q: In the meantime I write to myself? Isn't this the way it was suppose to be - I write just for me? A: In its time all will come to light. Q: It will if I survive all the stuff I am going through. That is questionable. My health is beginning to be troublesome. I think I am physically worn out and emotionally too. So what do you suggest for me George? Don't say meditation. I haven't been able to succeed at that yet. Give me another answer. A: Trust in our words. We can not lie nor do we want too. If this were not to be I would not be stating this. Q: We will see won't we, George. I don't mean to sound hateful but I seem to be screwing up in all aspects of my life lately. I have alienated almost everyone. I seem to stay frustrated. Why? For what reason is all this? I go through more lessons than anyone I know. Why? To make me crazy? I guess I don't get the reasons for the tests yet. I feel so useless anymore to myself or anyone else. I can't seem to find my way to peace. Part of me knows the way - part of me still struggles. When do I succeed.? A: In the time of rest.

The Ego

Q: George, why does the Ego always have to be so stubborn? Can't the Ego see the Soul at all? Does the Soul have to be hidden totally from the Ego? It makes this journey here so hard to just be Ego ruled. A: The Ego is aware of its other-half - but is veiled so it will not lean totally on the Soul. You see, the Soul is the strongest of the two. It is controlled totally by love. The Ego was separated and borne on this dimension to allow free will to reign in each person. This allows each Soul to love Source freely. Each emotion the Ego experiences allows it to grow in love. It is a journey to learn who and what we are. If one does not experience emotions - one never grows in the ability to love freely without attachments. If one attaches its love to a person, place or thing - it can never go beyond that love. Only when one looses its attachments to things can one begin to love freely. Let's say you are in love with a person, that person becomes your whole existence. One cannot love that person freely anymore - it becomes an obsession. That is also where jealousy begins. Attaching oneself to anything can hold them back from expanding their spirit. Q: But how do we keep that from happening when our Ego is such an attachment freak? A: To allow the Soul equal time within this earthly entity. Q: Okay - how do I accomplish that? A: Through prayer and meditation. When one prays they are centered into their Soul - into Spirit. This allows the Soul to come and merge with the Ego. Upon merging the two energies transmute into the one entity and healing is achieved for the Ego. When meditation is happening the same thing will be. Also when a soul is at a crossroads as to how to respond to a certain situation- if love wins in the decision - they will also merge. That is why I tell you all of the time to meditate - to go within. This is so healing of the person can happen. Love is so strong and has such a healing factor. One simply needs it at various times. Q: But if one is in a self-pity mode -that is very hard to do. A: Yes, self-pity is one emotion the Ego has in fullness and refuses to let it go. This is so it may justify its thoughts and actions to itself. Q: That doesn't sound good. It sounds like the Ego is only a brat. Doesn't the Ego have any good qualities? A: Oh, the Ego is much loved for its self-righteousness and "me," attitude. That is how a soul expands its spirit. Without the Ego none would grow. It is as important to a person as their soul. Both are needed. The Ego produces the learning and the Soul merges with it and becomes one. It is a marvelous journey for both. Q: Well, living in this dimension it is not often a marvelous feeling - it can bring much pain. A: Yes, unfortunately it can, but in the long run it is good for that soul. One only grows when one chooses to lay down attachments and respond freely to another. When one has attachments one will not be able to respond to another in love. Q: Is that like someone coming to your house and allowing their child to destroy it? One gets angry. A: In a way partly- yes. If one's whole love is controlled by a thing - then yes that is what would happen. But, if one realized that love is more important than the thing - it will not matter and love can be given freely. Q: But - people work so hard for what hey have and want it to last. To allow someones child to come in an be destructive is wrong. A: Yes, that is where their love is lacking. Children should be taught boundaries. They need to learn to care for the other person and their things. It is how one teaches them that is important. Q: How does one teach them properly? A: If you take care of the things placed in your possession it shows the child. A parent teaches more by example than by words. All do. Q: So, I should show not tell? A: Yes - all should. If one truly loves - one gives and shows respect. If one loves - one gives all honor to another. It that soul loves their home and their things - then honor that. Be mindful of their emotions. Q: So - how we respond to another is how we teach others? A: Yes. BE MINDFUL of the emotions of another. Show love in all things.

Animals

Q: I have been watching animals a lot lately. I am discovering how much they accept each other, share and just live for the moment. Why are they at such rest and we humans struggle? What do they possess that allows that? A: Animals come from the very oldest of souls. To be here on this learning dimension and not be able to verbally communicate is extremely hard on a soul. Only the oldest of souls can manage it. They have obtained the ability to love in a greater capacity than most souls. They have learned to dwell in peace. Q: Okay - so you say they have earned this place? A: Yes, they have earned it by working through thousands of earth years of learning experiences. They have become one with all things and therefore do not need verbal ability to communicate love. It is a wonderful place to be, few have reached it. Q: How do we obtain it? A: By the choice of learning to love without strings or attachments. One might say, " Well, that's easy." But I can assure you it is extremely difficult for souls to do so. First because the Ego here is so strong and is very self-centered. The other is the inability to reason without attaching something to it. Here - one attaches everything one has chosen as law to their loves. Accepting souls here as they are is nearly an impossible task. One has to die to their thinking and their feeling of I am right and you are wrong. A soul has to give way to the other soul - which is very scary for the Ego. It prefers to be king. Q: Why are we made up of such duality then? What's the reasoning behind that thinking? A: Well, since Source is made up of positive and negative - every soul is made up of the same energy. For in reality love can only shine as it overcomes obstacles. The thinking is to produce life in a duality so the meaning of oneness is greater, especially when two different energies can merge and become one. This makes the soul much stronger and the ability to love greater. It's like a marriage. You have two different people (energies) that merge and become one. During the years together the different energies mix at moments and battle in moments. But upon merging the feeling of oneness and love is expanded. As the years progress the two become more of a unit. Their thinking begins to merge in a more unified manner, they can finish each others' sentences. They are sad when the other is not there. The soul and ego are just like that. They are separate but become one as they merge and begin the journey of oneness. Life becomes full of love and unity. Duality begins to fade as they merge together and allow each to grow. The journey is far greater than my mere words can do justice too, Luv. Would you follow an energy that was boring or had no different thought? Would you become one with something that had no ability to think for themself? No, for opposites attract. The world is made up from the smallest of atoms to the biggest of energies by two sides-positive and negative. For only in the opposing energies can a greater love be borne.

Why Am I Always screwing up?

Q: Lately I seem to step on everybodies toes. I say the wrong thing - I do the wrong thing. What is up, George? Am I just becoming a bitch? Or is is some kind of spiritual test? What is happening? My friend Paul said the same thing. He is going through Hell. Is it the new energy coming in? What's up? A: First of all if one causes offense that is what the other Soul accepted. If one loves without any strings - that is exactly what is means - no strings. One can not get upset - if one holds no expectations or ideas of how things should be. One let's the other soul be as they are. The other is - yes - the energy is rapidly changing to a faster pace. The shift within and without is taking place as we speak. It will take a while for it to complete its specified journey. Each soul is experiencing a higher frequency of energy. This is taking it's toll on the slower energy. Remember when we discussed the coming shift of energy? We talked about it being so hard on souls that they would choose to leave. They are beginning to leave by the thousands all over the world. Do you still wish to go? Q: George, I am frustrated with the way my life is at present. My children and my friends are all suffering. I have a friend who doesn't even have a bed and I can't even help him. It makes me so angry. I just want all of us to get a break - some TLC. I would like to be able to write the books but working as I do I am just too tired to do it at night. A: So, what you are saying is you want some TLC but you really do not wish to leave? Q: I guess - sort of..... A: Good.....The new energy coming in is so full of enlightenment. It holds within it much knowledge for all souls that wish to hear. The way things are at present in this energy field will be changing drastically. Dreams will be more prominent in souls. The psychic ability will enhance in those willing to let it work. Those that remain in the old energy will begin to loose their abilities. They must move into the higher frequency to maintain it. The climate will change and so will the seasons which will cause more drastic elements, such as heat, cold, snow, ice, wind and earthquakes. One must move with the energy. Its a matter of choosing to accept the higher energy into one. Q: What will happen if we don't? A: Nothing except one will loose out on a greater knowing of Source. There will be changes but it will be within souls. Some that choose to move forward will be able to talk to souls through their mind and see things to come in a greater way. The door to one's third eye will be opened up into a greater frequency. Children will be more perceptive to the knowing. They will accept love in a greater way than those of the slower energy. Many changes coming, Luv for all things.

Seeking

Q: George, while seeking to know Source within and without I have many times felt as if there was no way I could ever truly understand what LOVE means. I understand what you say about the Soul and Ego, why they must be separated here, and why they balance. I get what you say. What I still have difficulty in is why I can't seem to become totally one with what you are all telling me. Why do I struggle so hard at times in grasping the spirituality of love? A" One of the reasons is you have never walked a life path as a male. You have no logic within you - only emotion. You came from within the negative (emotional) side of Source. Remember neither side emotional or positive is better than the other. Both must exist equally for any soul to exist. The reason for this was so you would have no logic. If you held within you any logic you would begin analyzing everything we tell you instead of letting your spirit take it - digest it and make it part of you. You would not be writing these words we share with you as your mind would talk you out of them. It is wonderful but yes it can become difficult for you . You take everything very emotionally. It deepens your feelings more and more.The other problem is the Ego. Here it rules with its self centered demands and rules. It does not relish anything taking down its throne of control. When it does get a glimpse of its other half the soul - it will do battle to keep its throne. Only in true peace and meditation will the soul become one with the Ego and they will find balance for a moment. That is usually when you or others will receive an epiphany. Do not worry about becoming spiritual - all are already there. One can not become what one already is.